Stuff

On Tuesday, February 23rd upon falling asleep, I was told by Guidance Energy, “Get up.” So, I got up. I went on SoulSpeak and was moved and inspired by a blog posted earlier called Struggle. “Share”, Guidance said. So I did. I posted a blog called Solutions for Struggle and offered Guidance Energy’s words on non-suffering, exactly as it guided. I was a little nervous because I know how Guidance Energy works. It does not just speak or offer wisdom. It is experiential. And I knew an experience to learn more deeply about polarity was coming as soon as I hit the publish blog button on SoulSpeak. I used my intuition immediately to try to “check in” on what experience was about to broadside me, but all I could uncover was a large collective event was about to take place. I went about my life and work and quieted the uneasiness as best I could.

Friday night, February 26th, the uneasiness hit full force. When this type of thing occurs for me I wind up doing the strangest things. I went to bed that night fully dressed. I got up at 1 am and walked outside, at which point I realized I was truly outside. “OK, this is weird” I said out loud and there was no response. No birds. No wind. No rustling of palm trees. Complete, enveloping eerie silence. My first thought was earthquake, but Guidance immediately answered “No, water.” “Water?” Oh no, I thought, not that. Just then the phone rang and it was a member of my daughters ohana, family. “Aunty, its time to go”. “OK”, I answered. When I hung up the phone, I realized we had not had a conversation. I had no idea about a tsunami warning being issued, or the earthquake in Chile. Within a few minutes I had all the information I needed thanks to technology, all the lights were on in my village, bustling sounds, car lights and horns announcing it was time for us all to leave. It’s very strange when faced with the decision of what “stuff” to take. I simply took the bare minimum of necessities. Once I had relocated up the mountain overlooking my home, land and the ocean, I settled down on the grass, watched the sun rise, the whales play and breathed a sigh of relief that I was, for the moment, safe. Then the uneasiness hit again, stronger than before and I realized that my home was not safe. My land was not safe. My stuff was not safe. And then it hit me, I could lose everything. All my stuff. I wanted for that not to matter, but it did. In the blink of an eye, the only thing that stood before me and losing my stuff was the power of nature, its mercy and God. I did a logical check on what losing my stuff meant and realized that if it occurred it would be gone for good. No rebuilding, just relocating with nothing. “The only safe place is within…” they said. I had heard this from them before. But what did that really mean?

In the matter of a moment, I learned what that meant. I literally went into the bodies of those recently who have experienced earthquakes, tsunamis and the like. I felt the swirl of losing the day-to-day reality of what you know. I felt the shock, the survival mechanism kicking in, the acceptance of what is before you. And I realized that in these moments all that is left is you and God, face to face. There is no control, no plan, no desire, no feelings. Your fate is decided by forces greater than you in the moment. I realized that we spend our days doing things that mean nothing in the larger picture. Guidance spoke, “your life is a drop in the bucket, a blip on the screen. What is of primary importance to a human being is mystical alignment because what lives on, the only thing that lives on, is soul.” I responded “and the suffering I and others are experiencing right now?” to which it replied, “ to those that are experiencing the positive polarity of life think, pray and hold positive thoughts around someone or something experiencing the negative and release the rest. For those experiencing the negative polarity, immerse yourself in what your soul is calling forth and know that there are those who hold the positive polarity from another place. In order for they’re to be unity, harmony and oneness you need to combine the opposites.” They were repeating the words from the blogs and then they added, “now do it for yourself”. “OK”, I answered, “I am willing…”

I allowed myself to have a reprieve from what was happening. I saw the beauty of nature, the rising sun, felt the deep gratitude of being safe and having an early warning. Then the sirens rang out loud and clear piercing the peace and beingness. The anxiety immediately set in - my stuff gone, can’t rebuild, need to relocate, concern for those that may be in harms way, the feeling of those that I had just encountered in spirit who had experienced disasters - and in a split second I used my gift to see into the future, to see what would occur in a few hours, so I could have some control of my destiny in the moment. And what I saw shocked me. I saw that in a few hours all would be well. I saw everyone believing that prayer and positive energy had shifted things. I saw everything back to normal. And then I saw time forward. I saw devastation, loss, and the reality that we are in a cycle right now where we have no control. None whatsoever. We are in collective cycle of mystical alignment. I panicked. “Do it for yourself” the Guides said. I knew what they meant. The deeper message of the polarity revelations included holding this within ourselves. I had to hold both realities, the positive and negative polarity, within myself. In doing this, I became a madwoman. I felt peace, the depth of emotion of love, safety and then swinging to the anxiety, sirens, the knowledge that even if this passed, it might not in the future and the fate of those I had just witnessed in spirit. I swung back and forth, back and forth. Eventually, I finally landed. I still have no idea where.

I am back at home. It is a magnificent day and all is well where my body sits. But is it? I have my experience in the moment of positive polarity but I also have knowledge of what has occurred and what is to come. I will hold all and surrender to forces far more powerful than my humanness. I surrender to my soul calling. I surrender to the awesome power of nature. I surrender to the power of a benevolent, loving Divine and all that it does, even if there is suffering and even if I don’t understand it. I will allow the voice of Guidance Energy to speak of collective mystical alignment and I will endure the experiential nature of it. In this willingness, I am forever changed.